saharaodeil's Blog

During the last few weeks my infatuation with a certain Mythbuster has intensified no end.

Last night I decided to put pen to paper and relive the ever-growing story between myself and Mr. Savage.

I have currently written three chapters and I am in the process of typing them up. After I have finished I plan to publish them on several fan fiction sites and may even post it here, in my blog. (:

My only qualm is that tragically, the tale I shall tell is completely fictitious. But still! Feedback from your kind selves would be greatly appreciated once I post it on here.

VIVA LA MYTHBUSTERS!

I've been looking for a job for about five months now (!) and yesterday, typically I had five phone calls from different companies calling to arrange interviews... Weird eh? Nothing for months and then BOOM!

So I've got an interview later on today for a job at a call centre... People say I have a 'lovely' telephone manner so hopefully I'll get it. I really need it so wish me luck!

xx

I've been staying away from home a lot over the last couple of weeks, helping my friend paint her back bedroom which is now being called my bedroom as I stay there so much lol.

Ah, I am so tired of everything right now. Trying to stay vague as I know that as soon as I think about all the crap going on I'll panic. Bury my head in the sand...

I had a dream about a T-rex last night. It was weird.

I've felt my depression creeping back again lately. 30 minutes ago I was fine.. Now I'm on the verge of tears.

I feel so trapped, physically, emotionally. All I have is this house, which isn't mine... Where generally I'm in ONE room on my own...

Emotionally. It's like being given freedom, depression loosens its hold and I move away cautiously, when I begin to embrace the freedom I am snatched back.

I have a pain in my chest. When I breathe I can feel it. It' an ache. I've constantly got a lump in the bck of my throat like I'm about to start crying.

Depression is depressing... 'Cause it's infinite. It's never gone forever. It's always about to come back.

I am £40-ish overdrawn and owe nearly £300 in bank charges - and believe it or not - it's through no fault of my own.

I pay our internet bill through my bank account as my mother doesn't have one and the internet people have taken double the amount they should've so I'm in the red and being charged £30 a day. Eep.

Help?

My JSA claim has been closed so I have to reclaim it which is a pain in the bum. I haven't told my mum 'cause I know she'd just have a go at me.

I owe a certain catalogue £105 and I only have like £80 - and I did a promotional thing where I don't have to pay for 2 months but they've charged me for that but even with that there's still like £15 unaccounted for. Agh. I'm so stressed. Lol. I dunno what to do.

Also this book thing I signed up for didn't atually deliver the books and I got a form to fill in and stuff and I've lost it and I don't have a printer to print it out again and it's due and if I don't pay they're gonna charge me and I'm 18 years old with no job, no savings, no financial support. GHJFKDGJTG!

My friend rescued a staffie a couple of months ago and we were told the dog might be pregnant sure enough, here they are... 8 pups, three black, two white and three brown... Not sure about males and females yet... Trying to look but they all keep wriggling round. And it's my friend's birthday today so that's like, the best birthday present ever.

Here's a pic of the whole lot and mum.

 (: EXCITING! xx
 

Just found out there are four boys and four girls. (:

Went to the cinema last night and saw two horror films back-to-back lol. I liked Awake, except for the ending. The other one freaked me out.

Aagh. I haven't slept at all in the last 32 hours. /:

Good night though

So last night I removed my nipple piercing. For ever.

I didn't want to, but the guy who pierced it did it wrong and you could see the bar through the skin and it was getting thinner and thinner...

So I decided instead of waiting for it to fall out I'd do some damage limitation and hopefully preserve the aesthetics of my nipple.

R.I.P nipple piercing. ):

Missed my JSA meeting, not sure what I'm supposed to do... I was dreading going anyway... So I just went shopping instead. /:

i have to print off a few letters 'cause I don't have a printer at home and then I have to go and join connexions. Which I really don't want to do.

There's a guy right next to me who keeps muttering to himself. Eeep.